Positive thought Wednesday...

"It's not the events of our lives that shape us, but our beliefs as to what those events mean."   ~Anthony Robbins~

YES! YES! YES! I think my unemployment is ending soon. I am not sure if I'm eligible for another extension, but I will apply anyway. I think I'm FINALLY ready to get in the groove and look for work. Time to send in my resume to the jobs I find online and leave the results to God - social anxiety or not. Don't know what I want to do, but I'm saved some jobs and now it's time to take action. I have accepted that moving right now is not an option and that I have to return to work, to a job of some kind. Okay, I'm there.

Joined a site where I'll be working on some physical goals for myself. Now I need to complete the process, plus complete the profile on the site for clinical trials. Don't know what will happen with the last, if I'll be eligible for any of the trials, but again - GOD is in control. Is it time to take the leap and get off unemployment, to work more on writing? Or, are those my thoughts? Dunno...

Ok, I have about 45 minutes to get out of here to go to the doctor. I want to get down a rough draft of a poem.

Living up to my word...

Ok, I didn't go to the gym today, but I worked out here at home and went to an OA meeting. Felt good, yes it did. Saw my old sponsor. Feels strange being a newcomer again. But that's how long I've been battling this disease. It's about time I do something to change it before it kills me one way or the other.

I'm tired tonight, so this will be all for now. Going to bed early tonight; up early tomorrow, and then going to Catalina - not staying for dinner with the gang - just don't have the money.

Day One of Many

I started baby at the gym today, actually getting myself up at 9 am. I will do the same thing tomorrow, only trying to get to the gym earlier, so I can organize my time on the computer to do things like making the photo essays I've been wanting to do and that I took pictures for the other day. I am not the soul of organization, so in my changes, this is one thing I must work on.

Today at the gym I wrote up a workout to follow, so that when I go there, I will know what to do. Hopefully, my workout will be more organized. Maybe then I can spend some time relaxing in the pool, whirlpool, and the wet sauna.

Before I go to bed, I still want to look up a couple of other things online, like OA meetings. Ok, I'm not crazy about OA, but I need to be willing to make this change and go to the meetings. As Tennie, on Addicted to Food, always says, this is the hardest thing I will ever do in my life - regarding breaking my addiction to eating the wrong kinds of food. I know what she means, since some of the changes I'm so willing to do and others I just resist like crazy.

Well, here's to my continuing success in keepin' on keepin' on. Okey dokey!