T.G.I.F. or so it appears...

Woke up late today, since I rebelled and stayed up until 3 am. But, for some reason, I feel energized. I have plenty of time to work on 5 articles, so I'm going to use today to get ahead on them, then - and only then - can I pick up more articles to write. Did my research on the 5 articles last night, so I'm a little bit ahead of the game. And after yesterday's bodily abuse - eating like a slob! - I want to be gentle with myself today, so I'll think of myself as a beautiful, fragile, God-created flower.

I received a nice compliment on one of my articles - the one I wrote about Bonsai. It was a fun and interesting article to write, plus learning something about a beautiful garden art.

Rule #1 - BE GENTLE WITH MYSELF ALWAYS.

Even though confusion about all that's broken in my life still reigns supreme, I started praying earnestly about it last night as I tried to fall asleep. Maybe that's the key - it's not so much definitive words I use, or specific needs I pray for, but the honesty from my heart and soul that I pour out to God. Ya think?

Not necessarily in the following order:

In the next week, I must study and know the information in the DMV booklet, plus raise the money before 6/4 to get a great haircut - at Faroh's - who is the only hairdresser to cut my hair exactly as I like it. I think this will go a long way towards helping me to feel better.

Next, I have to break through my social anxiety - even in small ways - to attend some kind of event. Tonight, will see how I feel about going to see Lisa Marie perform in Pasadena. Yeah, it's scary to go out at night...not because of danger, just my own feeling about leaving my apartment. VULNERABILITY!  Saturday, I want to go to the haiku workshop at Pacific Asia Museum, it's earlier than Catalina (plus I won't run into 2 people who dislike me - Lynne and Leah - just don't need that NEGATIVITY, even though I won't hear Jack), plus closer to transportation back home, so I can get to bed early and get up for church (I REALLY WANT TO GO!) on Sunday.

To be continued...  

Living up to my word...

Ok, I didn't go to the gym today, but I worked out here at home and went to an OA meeting. Felt good, yes it did. Saw my old sponsor. Feels strange being a newcomer again. But that's how long I've been battling this disease. It's about time I do something to change it before it kills me one way or the other.

I'm tired tonight, so this will be all for now. Going to bed early tonight; up early tomorrow, and then going to Catalina - not staying for dinner with the gang - just don't have the money.

Day One of Many

I started baby at the gym today, actually getting myself up at 9 am. I will do the same thing tomorrow, only trying to get to the gym earlier, so I can organize my time on the computer to do things like making the photo essays I've been wanting to do and that I took pictures for the other day. I am not the soul of organization, so in my changes, this is one thing I must work on.

Today at the gym I wrote up a workout to follow, so that when I go there, I will know what to do. Hopefully, my workout will be more organized. Maybe then I can spend some time relaxing in the pool, whirlpool, and the wet sauna.

Before I go to bed, I still want to look up a couple of other things online, like OA meetings. Ok, I'm not crazy about OA, but I need to be willing to make this change and go to the meetings. As Tennie, on Addicted to Food, always says, this is the hardest thing I will ever do in my life - regarding breaking my addiction to eating the wrong kinds of food. I know what she means, since some of the changes I'm so willing to do and others I just resist like crazy.

Well, here's to my continuing success in keepin' on keepin' on. Okey dokey!